life's an awkward journey we all have to go through, so we might as well entertain others as we do it!

Thursday, December 27, 2012

When I Heard the Learn'd Astronomer

When I heard the learn'd astronomer,
When the proofs, the figures, were ranged in columns before me,
When I was shown the charts and diagrams, to add, divide, and measure them,
When I sitting heard the astronomer where he lectured with much applause in the lecture-room,

How soon unaccountable I became tired and sick,
Till rising and gliding out I wander'd off by myself,
In the mystical moist night-air, and from time to time,
Look'd up in perfect silence at the stars.

--Walt Whitman

["Some keep the Sabbath going to Church"]

Some keep the Sabbath going to Church -
I keep it, staying at Home -
With a Bobolink for a Chorister -
And an Orchard, for a Dome -

Some keep the Sabbath in Surplice -
I, just wear my Wings -
And instead of tolling the Bell, for Church,
Our little Sexton - sings.

God preaches, a noted Clergyman -
And the sermon is never long,
So instead of getting to Heaven, at last -
I'm going, all along.

--Emily Dickinson


The name of the author is the first to go
followed obediently by the title, the plot,
the heartbreaking conclusion, the entire novel
which suddenly becomes one you have never read, never even heard of,

as if, one by one, the memories you used to harbor
decided to retire to the southern hemisphere of the brain,
to a little fishing village where there are no phones.

Long ago you kissed the names of the nine Muses goodbye
and watched the quadratic equation pack its bag,
and even now as you memorize the order of the planets,

something else is slipping away, a state flower perhaps,
the address of an uncle, the capital of Paraguay.

Whatever it is you are struggling to remember,
it is not poised on the tip of your tongue,
not even lurking in some obscure corner of your spleen.

It has floated away down a dark mythological river
whose name begins with an L as far as you can recall,

well on your way to oblivion where you will join those
who have even forgotten how to swim and how to ride a bicycle.

No wonder you rise in the middle of the night
to look up the date of a famous battle in a book on war.
No wonder the moon in the window seems to have drifted
out of a love poem that you used to know by heart.

--Billy Collins

A Shropshire Lad II: Loveliest of trees, the cherry now

Loveliest of trees, the cherry now
Is hung with bloom along the bough,
And stands about the woodland ride
Wearing white for Eastertide.

Now, of my threescore years and ten,
Twenty will not come again,
And take from seventy springs a score,
It only leaves me fifty more.

And since to look at things in bloom
Fifty springs are little room,
About the woodlands I will go
To see the cherry hung with snow.

--A.E. Housman

At Navajo Monument Valley Tribal School

the football field rises
to meet the mesa. Indian boys
gallop across the grass, against

the beginnings of their body.
On those Saturday afternoons,
unbroken horses gather to watch

their sons growing larger
in the small parts of the world.
Everyone is the quarterback.

There is no thin man in a big hat
writing down all the names
in two columns: winners and losers.

This is the eternal football game,
Indians versus Indians. All the Skins
in the wooden bleachers fancydancing,

stomping red dust straight down
into nothing. Before the game is over,
the eight-grade girls' track team

comes running, circling the field,
their thin and brown legs echoing
wild horses, wild horses, wild horses.

--Sherman Alexie

A Barred Owl

The warping night air having brought the boom
Of an owl's voice into her darkened room,
We tell the wakened child that all she heard
Was an odd question from a forest bird,
Asking of us, if rightly listened to,
"Who cooks for you?" and then "Who cooks for you?"

Words, which can make our terrors bravely clear,
Can also thus domesticate a fear,
And send a small child back to sleep at night
Not listening for the sound of stealthy flight
Or dreaming of some small thing in a claw
Borne up to some dark branch and eaten raw.

--Richard Wilbur (1992)

The History Teacher

Trying to protect his students' innocence
he told them the Ice Age was really just
the Chilly Age, a period of a million years
when everyone had to wear sweaters.

And the Stone Age became the Gravel Age,
named after the long driveways of the time.

The Spanish Inquisition was nothing more
than an outbreak of questions such as
"How far is it from here to Madrid?"
"What do you call the matador's hat?"

The War of the Roses took place in a garden,
and the Enola Gay dropped one tiny atom on Japan.

The children would leave his classroom
for the playground to torment the weak
and the smart,
mussing up their hair and breaking their glasses,

while he gathered up his notes and walked home
past flower beds and white picket fences,
wondering if they would believe that soldiers
in the Boer War told long, rambling stories
designed to make the enemy nod off.

--Billy Collins (2002)

The Fury of Aerial Bombardment

You would think the fury of aerial bombardment
Would rouse God to relent; the infinite spaces
Are still silent. He looks on shock-pried faces.
History, even, does not know what is meant.

You would feel that after so many centuries
God would give man to repent; yet he can kill
As Cain could, but with multitudinous will,
No farther advanced than in his ancient furies

Was man made stupid to see his own stupidity?
Is God by definition indifferent, beyond us all?
Is the eternal truth man's fighting soul
Wherein the Beast ravens in its own avidity?

Of Van Wettering I speak, and Averill,
Names on a list, whose faces I do not recall
But they are gone to early death, who late in school
Distinguished the belt feed lever from the belt holding pawl.

--Richard Eberhart (1944)

Auto Wreck

Its quick soft silver bell beating, beating
And down the dark one ruby flare
Pulsing out red light like an artery,
The ambulance at top speed floating down
Past beacons and illuminated clocks
Wings in a heavy curve, dips down,
And brakes speed, entering the crowd.
The doors leap open, emptying light;
Stretchers are laid out, the mangled lifted
And stowed into the little hospital.
Then the bell, breaking the hush, tolls once,
And the ambulance with its terrible cargo
Rocking, slightly rocking, moves away,
As the doors, an afterthought, are closed.
We are deranged, walking among the cops
Who sweep glass and are large and composed.
One is still making notes under the light.
One with a bucket douches ponds of blood
Into the street and gutter.
One hangs lanterns on the wrecks that cling,
Empty husks of locusts, to iron poles.

Our throats were tight as tourniquets,
Our feet were bound with splints, but now,
Like convalescents intimate and gauche,
We speak through sickly smiles and warn
With the stubborn saw of common sense,
The grim joke and the banal resolution.
The traffic moves around with care,
But we remain, touching a wound
That opens to our richest horror.
Already old, the question, Who shall die?
Becomes unspoken, Who is innocent?
For death in war is done by hands;
Suicide has cause and stillbirth, logic;
And cancer, simple as a flower, blooms.
But this invites the occult mind,
Cancels our physics with a sneer,
And spatters all we knew of denoument
Across the expedient and wicked stones.

--Karl Shapiro (1942)

God's Grandeur

The world is charged with the grandeur of God. 
       It will flame out, like shining from shook foil;
       It gathers to a greatness, like the ooze of oil
Crushed. Why do men then now not reck his rod?
Generations have trod, have trod, have trod;
       And all is seared with trade; Bleared, smeared with toil;
       And wears man's smudge and shares man's smell: the soil
Is bare now, nor can foot feel, being shod. 

And for all this, nature is never spent;
       There lives the dearest freshness deep down things;
And though the last lights off the black West went
       Oh, morning, at the brown brink eastward, springs ---
Because the Holy Ghost over the bent
       World broods with warm breast and with ah! bright wings. 

--Gerard Manley Hopkins (1877)

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Merry Christmas!

Well, the world didn't end! Which left Christmas to look forward to; and a new year!

How was your Christmas?

Mine was small and simple, but good. And I get to see Les Miserables today! 
(Which was AMAZING by the way! GO SEE IT. It's TOTALLY worth it!)

It's been a grand Christmas, and I'm really glad the world didn't end like the Mayans supposedly predicted.

It's been a good year. I'm definitely excited for the upcoming one though.

Happy Christmas!


Thursday, December 13, 2012

On a Ladder Leading Nowhere - Absofacto


Song of the Day.

Pretty cool, not something you hear a lot. I actually hadn't listened to them in a while until I heard this song play as I went through the Taco Bell drive thru -- I love shuffle on my iPod.




I'm nobody! Who are you? Are you nobody, too? Then there's a pair of us --- don't tell! They'd banish us, you know. 
How dreary to be somebody! How public, like a frog To tell your name the livelong day To an admiring bog!
--Emily Dickinson

To fight aloud is very brave,

But gallenter, I know, 
Who charge within the bosom, 
The cavalry of woe.
Who win, and nations do not see, 
Who fall, and none observe, 
Whose dying eyes no country
Regards with patriot love. 
We trust, in plumed procession, 
For such the angels go, 
Rank after rank, with even feet
And uniforms of snow. 
--Emily Dickinson

Pain has an element of blank; It cannot recollect When it began, or if there were A day when it was not. 
It has no future but itself, Its infinite realms contain Its past, enlightened to perceive New periods of pain. --Emily Dickinson

The soul selects her own society, Then shuts the door; On her divine majority Obtrude no more.
Unmoved, she notes the chariot's pausing At her low gate;Unmoved, an emperor is kneeling Upon her mat.
I've known her from an ample nation Choose one;Then close the valves of her attention Like stone.
--Emily Dickinson

The Pool Players.
Seven at the Golden Shovel.

We real cool. We
Left school. We

Lurk late. We 
Strike straight. We 
Sing sin. We 
Thin gin. We 

Jazz June. We 
Die soon. 

--Gwendolyn Brooks

Death, be not proud, though some have called thee
Mighty and dreadful, for thou art not so;
For those whom thou think'st thou dost overthrow
Die not, poor Death, nor yet canst thou kill me. 
From rest and sleep, which but thy pictures be,
Much pleasure; then from thee much more must flow,
And soonest our best men with thee do go,
Rest of their bones, and soul's delivery. 
Thou art slave to fate, chance, kings, and desperate men,
And dost with poison, war, and sickness dwell,
And poppy or charms can make us sleep as well
And better than thy stroke; why swell'st thou then?
One short sleep past, we wake eternally
And death shall be no more; Death, thou shalt die. 
--John Donne

When I was one-and-twenty
I heard a wise man say,
"Give crowns and pounds and guineas
But not your heart away;
Give pearls away and rubies
But keep your fancy free."
But I was one-and-twenty,
No use to talk to me. 

When I was one-and-twenty
I heard him say again, 
"The heart out of the bosom
Was never given in vain;
'Tis paid with sighs a plenty 
And sold for endless rue."
And I am two-and-twenty, 
And oh, 'tis true, 'tis true.

--A.E. Housman

She even thinks that up in heaven
Her class lies late and snores

While poor black cherubs rise at seven
To do celestial chores. 

--Countee Cullen

The whiskey on your breath
Could make a small boy dizzy;
But I hung on like death;
Such waltzing was not easy.

We romped until the pans 
Slid from the kitchen shelf;
My mother;s countenance
Could not unfrown itself. 

The hand that held my wrist
Was battered on one knuckle;
At every step you missed
My right ear scraped a buckle.

You beat time on my head
With a palm caked hard by dirt, 
Then waltzed me off to bed
Still clinging to your shirt. 

--Theodore Roethke

I like to see it lap the Miles --

And lick the Valleys up --
And stop to feed itself at Tanks --
And then -- prodigious step
Around a Pile of Mountains --
And supercilious peer
In Shanties -- by the sides of Roads --
And then a Quarry pare
To fit its Ribs
And crawl between
Complaining all the while 
In horrid -- hooting stanza --
Then chase itself down Hill --
And neigh like Boanerges --
Then -- punctual as a Star
Stop -- docile and omnipotent
At its own stable door --
--Emily Dickinson

Not a red rose or a satin heart.

I give you an onion.
It is a moon wrapped in brown paper. 
It promises light
like the careful undressing of love. 

It will blind you with tears
like a lover.
It will make your reflection 
a wobbling photo of grief. 

I am trying to be truthful. 

Not a cute card or a kissogram. 

I give you an onion. 
Its fierce kiss will stay on your lips,
possessive and faithful
as we are,
for as long as we are.

Take it. 
Its platinum loops shrink to a wedding-ring, 
if you like. 

Its scent will cling to your fingers, cling to your knife. 

--Carol Ann Duffy

The readers of the Boston Evening Transcript
Sway in the wind like a field of ripe corn. 

When evening quickens faintly in the street, 
Wakening the appetites of life in some
And to others bringing the Boston Evening Transcript
I mount the steps and ring the bell, turning
Wearily, as one would turn to nod good-bye to Rochefoucauld,
If the street were time and he at the end of the street,
And I say, "Cousin Harriet, here is the Boston Evening Transcript." 

--T.S. Eliot

As virtuous men pass mildly away,
And whisper to their souls to go,
Whilst some of their sad friends do say
The breath goes now, and some say, No:

So let us melt, and make no noise,
No tear-floods, nor sigh-tempests move;
Twere profanation of our joys
To tell the laity our love.

Moving of th' earth brings harms and fears,
Men reckon what it did, and meant;
But trepidation of the spheres, 
Though greater far, is innocent. 

Dull sublunary lovers' love
(Whose soul is sense) cannot admit
Absence, because it doth remove
Those things which elemented it. 

But we by a love so much refined,
That our selves know not what it is,
Inter-assured of the mind,
Care less, eyes, lips, and hands to miss.

Our two souls therefore, which are one,
Though I must go, endure not yet
A breach, but an expansion, 
Like gold to airy thinness beat. 

If they be two, they are two so
As stiff twin compasses are two;
Thy soul, the fixed foot, makes no show
To move, but doth, if the other do. 

And though it in the center sit,
Yet when the other far doth roam, 
It leans and hearkens after it,
And grows erect, as that comes home. 

Such wilt thou be to me, who must, 
Like th' other foot, obliquely run;
Thy firmness makes my circle just,
And makes me end where I begun. 

--John Donne

I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.
Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.
The waves beside them danced; but they
Out-did the sparkling waves in glee:
A poet could not but be gay,
In such jocund company:
I gazed--and gazed--but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:
For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.
--William Wordsworth

I tend the mobile now
like an injured bird
We text, text, text
our significant words.
I re-read your first,
your second, your third,
look for your small xx,
feeling absurd.
The codes we send
arrive with a broken chord.
I try to picture your hands,
their image is blurred.
Nothing my thumbs press
will ever be heard.
--Carol Ann Duffy

I've known rivers:
I've known rivers ancient as the world and older than the 
                            flow of human blood in human veins. 

My soul has grown deep like the rivers. 

I bathed in Euphrates when dawns were young.
I built my hut near the Congo and it lulled me to sleep. 
I looked upon the Nile and raised the pyramids above it. 
I heard the signing of the Mississippi when Abe Lincoln
                            went down to New Orleands, and I've seen its
                            muddy bosom turn all golden in the sunset

I've known rivers:
Ancient, dusky rivers.

My soul has grown deep like the rivers. 

--Langston Hughes

The world is charged with the grandeur of God.
It will flame out, like shining from shook foil;
It gathers to a greatness, like the ooze of oil
Crushed. Why do men then now not reck his rod?
Generations have trod, have trod, have trod;
And all is seared with trade; bleared, smeared with toil;
And wears man's smudge and share's man's smell: the soil
Is bare now, nor can foot feel, being shod.

And for all this, nature is never spent;
There lives the dearest freshness deep down things;
And though the last lights off the black West went
Oh, morning, at the brown brink eastward, springs --
Because the Holy Ghost over the bent
World broods with warm breast and with ah! bright wings. 

--Gerard Manley Hopkins 

Much Madness is divinest Sense -
To a discerning Eye -
Much Sense - the starkest Madness -
'Tis the Majority
In this, as all, prevail -
Assent - and you are sane - 
Demur - you're sraightway dangerous -
And handled with a Chain -
--Emily Dickinson

I'm going out to clean the pasture spring;
I'll only stop to rake the leaves away
(And wait to watch the water clear, I may):
I sha'n't be gone long. -You come too. 

I'm going out to fetch the little calf
That's standing by the mother. It's so young,
It totters when she licks it with her tongue. 
I sha'n't be gone long. -You come too. 

--Robert Frost

Bright star, would I were stedfast as thou art--
Not in lone splendour hung aloft the night
And watching, with eternal lids apart,
Like nature's patient, sleepless Eremite,
The moving waters at their priestlike task
Of pure ablution round earth's human shores,
Or gazing on the new soft-fallen mask
Of snow upon the mountains and the moors --
No -- yet still stedfast, still unchangeable,
Pillow'd upon my fair love's ripening breast,
To feel for ever its soft fall and swell, 
Awake for ever in a sweet unrest,
Still, still to hear her tender-taken breath,
And so live ever -- or else swoon to death. 
--John Keats

You can thank my English teacher for this post. We're doing a poetry unit in AP Literature, and I'm just loving it! Poetry really is so beautiful. I wish I could write it well. 




Well, lately I've taken to listening to Pandora a lot. I really love the variety I can get from listening to some of my favorite music artists. I love the wide range of music they have on there too.

Anyway, I decided I would just share a few of my favorite Pandora stations with you all.

(In no particular order)
1. Kate Nash

2. The Lumineers

3. Imagine Dragons

4. Florence + The Machine

5. Band of Horses

6. The Civil Wars

7. Mumford & Sons

8. John Williams (Composer) 

9. Beirut

10. The Kooks 

Feel free to share some of your favorite stations with me! I always love hearing some good new jams.


Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Song of the Day 12/12/12

Love this song. It's pretty awesome, and Two Door Cinema Club are sublime.


Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Sadie Hawkins Dance

Myranda and her date Kyle. They're the neon couple. 

(I think this picture of them is so cute.)

We had to carve pumpkins of our date. We drew their face on the pumpkin without looking. And then we had to carve it out. Fabrizio's drawing of me is on the left, my drawing of him is on the right. 

Me in pumpkin form, and Kelsey poppin' out the knife to carve her pumpkin. 

Pumpkin Fabrizio. He had his hand in front of his mouth when I was drawing, that's why it looks so freakish. 

Jonathan, Kelsey's date, definitely went all out in attire. 

Jonathan and Beno. 

Fabrizio's first time carving a pumpkin!

Kelsey's perfect photobombing face. :)

Fabrizio struggled a little with getting the knife in the pumpkin. Yeah, it's hard. We all struggled. 

Isaac and Sofie! Their pumpkins turned out pretty cute. 

Isaac carving his pumpkin. 

Final rendition of pumpkin Fabrizio. He kind of looks scary. 

Irene! She looks super cute!

Irene and Kelsey

Me and Irene. 

Candid cam! 

Fabrizio is contemplating if he wants pumpkin pie or not. 

Fabrizio eating his first pumpkin pie slice. 

Fabrizio and McKenna. We're all ready for some good desserts. 

Monday, November 12, 2012

The Happiest Place on Earth

Yes, we got to be Doug's humans. He even talked to us!

California Adventure. 

Haddie and Carter are officially Senior Wilderness Explorers now!

Halloween Time at Disneyland.

The Mad Hatter. 

Lightning McQueen!

Gotta love Mater. 

Radiator Springs. Gateway to Ornament Valley. 

Senior Wilderness Explorers unite!

Radiator Springs. Service with a smile - mile after mile. 

The Mad Hatter Shop. 

"Like tomater -- without the TA." 

Radiator Springs. Welcome to Cars Land. 

Walt and Mickey. 

Came across this at Ruby's Diner and thought it was hilarious. 

Tractor crossing. 

He sure is a reckless kid. *wink, wink*

"To infinity and beyond!" The things one can do with Legos. 

Cars sure know how to tell it. 

California Beaches baby!

What animal spirit are you?

Zurg at World of Color. 

Up at World of Color. 

Ariel at World of Color. 

Wilderness Explorer Map. 

Wilderness Explorer Camp. 

Fallin' asleep on Tower of Terror. No big deal. 

DEFINITELY a birthday Carter will remember! :)